Where does the time go?

Looking all G.Q. in his outfit. One of my fav's.

Our Briston Boy He is so sweet and loves his baths!!

My baby is 3 months old and I can't believe where the time goes!! Christmas is almost here and then BAM 2010! Now that Briston is getting a little bit more independant and doesn't mind sitting in his swing or bouncer a little longer then I might be ablet o get some more bloggin done.

He is discovering his hands and loves to eat them. He started to laugh on our 9th anniversary and it is the sweetest sound I've heard!

An Update for Auntie Kindy and Briston's newborn and first family pictures

Well here is our pictures of our little man from the photo shoot that we had done at the end of September. We just got them this weekend and Grammy is holding my baby so I actually have time to post!!

     Our first family pictures

                                                            Daddy giving him kisses

This is one of my favorites!!!

Well it's almost time to get this pictures taken again!! He is growing so fast!! He is 2 months old tomorrow! He is finally fitting in 0-3 month clothes but still in newborn diapers. Life as a new mom is slowly getting easier!! We are still not up and dressed for the day til 11:00 in the morning. But we sure do have fun!! In the morning after his breakfast I put him in his swing so I can eat my breakfast, and he loves to talk to the bear that is on his mobile of his swing. It is so cute to hear him coo and watch the bear go round and round. He really is becoming alert!

Boy does he love his Bink! He also loves to smile. Most of his smiling is done after he has had his breakfast and we have our morning talks. I love these times! He also LOVES his baths. He will just sit there with the most content look on his face!

Lately we are always having to help him let go of his hair! He stretches his little arms then as his hands touch his head  he cant help but grab a handful of hair!!

Right now he is cooing at his Papa and Grammy. We love living near Papa and Grammy! It is so much fun to see them with him.  And some times you hear more baby talk from the 4 adults that live here then you do from the baby!

We still can't tell what color or eyes he has. They are this blue steel color with a hint of green. Still just a little murky. Hopefully we will see a color emerge more clearly soon!

We absolutely LOVE being parents sleep deprivation and all! Jeff is so good to let me sleep in on Saturdays! He has always been an early riser (lucky for me!!) But Briston is getting to where he will take more naps. He just wants to sleep in my arms..which I usually always let him!!

Since it is Thanksgiving I want to tell you what I am grateful for...

1. My family

2. My faith

3. Our families

4. That Jeff has a job

5. When Briston sleeps for 5 hours!

6. When Jeff lets me sleep in on Saturdays

7. When my baby smiles at me

8. How good water tastes!

9. A crisp fall day

10. A healthy family

4. 

Newborn Pictures

Here is a sneek peek of our sweet boy!!!

Our Miracle and the Perfect Day

First Sunday nap with Daddy
My Precious Boy
           Our First day home. 

He gets a lot of this :)

Me and my little buddy!!

         Our miracle!!!

Daddy and Briston this really shows how little he is and how much his Daddy and I love him. We love that he is here and can't get enough of him. Why we bought a crib I don't know he almost always sleeps in our arms! Love him!!!

Our Miracle was born on September 16th @ 1:31 am. Weighing in @ 6 pounds 11 oz. 19 1/2 inches long.  It was the perfect day. He came into our lives and everything was made right.  We held our little one in our arms and were instantly a family. A family bound by love that will last through the eternities. Never have we felt so much happiness. It truly was the perfect day. It didn't matter the sleepless nights that were to follow or the hardships of first time parents. . . everything was exactly as it should be. We are a family, our little miracle is here and our world is perfect. 

I think that my 7 year old nephew Conor said it the best. When he held our little man for the first time I asked him, "So Conor what do you think?" Conor said, "He's just perfect!!" we think so to Conor...we think so too.

Perfect. . . Even though we didn't get any sleep for the next 4 days after that!! He has been a pure joy to us. I never could have imagined how much happiness a little one can bring into ones life. He is everything we have ever dreamed of and hoped for, he is perfect in every way. He truly is my heart living outside of my body and I would give anything just to have him smile up at me. 

He's coming!!!!

I am dilated to a 2 and the doctor is going to induce me on Tuesday!! 

Parenthood here we come!!!

2 Weeks Left!!!

Wow today I have 2 weeks left and I can't believe how fast it has flown by! I want to give a shout out to everyone who put on the baby shower it was AMAZING!! Seriously, I couldn't even try to sleep til 2 am because I was SOO excited! And thanks everyone for coming and supporting us we are so blessed to have so many wonderful people in our lives!

Well I have had some contractions....but nothing that stays around. Lots of lower back pain but again it doesn't stay constant. Jeff has been asking my all weekend if my bag is packed...and NO it isn't. I know a little late but I am in the process. We had company this weekend and my good friend Liz tells me that I am in denial. That I am scared of the whole labor and delivery.....well YEAH!! But....its more than that..... I just want him to stay little and I know that isn't going to happen. He will grow so quickly and perhaps me delaying in packing is my way of keeping him 'little' as long as possible. Yeah.....I know......its denial....but I can't wait to hold him in my arms!!! It is all Jeff and I talk about. He tells me at least 5 times a day how excited he is for this little miracle and I can't wait either......

2 WEEKS and we get to by Mommy and Daddy!

It will be the best day ever!!

Happy B-Day Jeff and 8 Weeks Left!!!

Happy Birthday Jeff!

I am so grateful that you are my husband and for the wonderful man that you are. You make me laugh and lift me when I am down. You have such a wonderful attitude about life that makes living it with you an adventure! You are going to be the best daddy ever! I am grateful for you and all of the hard work you do for our family. Happy Birthday my love.


Us at the Diamond Backs game for Jeff's Birthday

Jeff's Parents took him to Molly Butlers for his Birthday in Greer. It was delicouse!! Thanks Mom and Dad! Isn't it beautiful? We sat on this big deck right by a roaring fire (it is still a little cold in Greer). It was beautiful!! (I am 31 weeks here).

We went up to Greer for F.H.E. a couple weeks ago to picnic and fish in the stream. Here I am 30 weeks.

This is a picture of Briston at his First Diamondbacks game!! (I'm almost 32 weeks here.)

From left to right Niece Camylle, Sister-in-law Cara, Sister Chelsea. Sister Cymanee, me, my mom Katrina and my baby sister Cambrie.

Here are some PREGO PIC'S of course they loaded out of order but this is me at 7 months

Not my most flattering moment but this is 29 Weeks

26 Weeks

21 Weeks

20 Weeks

I have 8 Weeks left before this little guy makes his big arrival and I am SOOOO excited!! a little nervous too ;)

He is getting so strong, I can feel it when he kicks me. And I believe that he thinks my ribs are his play toys. But being pregnant has been a wonderful experience despite all of the aches and pains. I never thought that I would be able to experience such a beautiful thing. And to have it finally happen is an experience I will always cherish.

One of my really good friends once described the love of a mother as her heart walking around outside of her body. I am beginning to understand what she meant. My little Briston is so warm and protected right now, and soon he will be in this big ol' world where not everything is not monitored by yours truly... But at the same time I can't wait to see him! To look and see if he has my nose or Daddy's eyes! By the ultrasound pic's it looks like he already has my lips....poor kid.... I am sure they will come in handy when he wants to pout about something ;)

But I know that coming to this earth and making decisions, being faced with obstacles and growing is part of the reason we are here. It just feels a lot different know that I am having to let my little baby be exposed to this ol' world. However, we do have a lot of things planned already! We talk to our little Briston Boy everyday about how we are going to go fishin' and camping and take him to Disneyland! We can't wait to experience our new little family life.

Trip to Texas and Ash's Temple Day!!

Me and Briley Bean!!

At the end of March my mother in law Roz and I went to Texas. We met Kindy and little Briley there to have a girl time with Kortney while Pratt was in AZ.  We shopped til we dropped, went to see a beautiful lake, saw the Dallas Texas Temple, went to the coolest two story Joann's!! Shopped in Louisiana and learned to make hair bows. Once Mom and I got to the airport we were a little stranded. Kindy's flight had been cancelled due to a blizzard and she was our tour guide! So mom and I sat at the airport til Kort got of work and she was headed our way to pick us up. Well we decided it would be easier for Kort to find us if we could get to Union Station. So we took three buses to get to our little Union Station, only to realize to late that it wasn't Union Station! Thank goodness for Mr. garmin or we would have sat there forever! 

Kindy had a really hard time getting a flight in. It was snowing like crazy in Denver so she couldn't get out of Colorado then Texas was having tornado warnings!! So we stayed the night and she was able to make it in late the next night.  After that crazy beginning, we finally got everybody there and the fun really began!!

Kindy and Briley at the lake in Texas

Me, Mom holding Briley and Kortney and Rhew at the Lake!

All of us at a really good restaurant in Kort's town. It was so much fun going to Texas! It is really a pretty state. I was really sad that I didn't get any pic's of the landscaping.

This is my mother in law Roz and me on the flight over there!

Kortney and me and the Dallas Texas Temple.

More of the Dallas Texas Temple.

My little sister Ashleigh is on her mission in Salt Lake City Temple Square. This is the day that she went through the Temple in Snowflake. Ash is the one in the red. We had such a wonderful day. I was able to be one of her escort through the Temple and it was such a wonderful experience. She is loving her mission and all of the great spiritual experiences that come with serving the Lord.

If any of you know anything about Snowflake you know that it is almost ALWAYS windy! Such was the case on this day. We had to hold our hair back so we could even face the camera! 

FRUSTRATION!!!

The cable the connects my camera to my computer has a short. I have called the company and they are supposed to be sending me a new one. That was over a week ago. Walmart doesn't have any mini USB cables so I am at the mercy of Olympus camera company. Hopefully I will have a new cable soon and can post some pics! Lots has happend! Can't wait to fill you in.

IT'S A.....................

BOY!!!!!

We almost didn't find out because he was a little shy and the pic's didn't turn out that great but I am going back in a couple weeks to get some more. HOPEFULLY they will be better. But here is the pic, fuzzy as it is, that tells us we are going to have a BOY! We are so excited and can't wait for him to come. YEAH!!!

18 weeks and 6 days to go! The dr. said that everything is going well and he looks like he is going to be TALL. Well we kinda had a guess that our babies would be on the tall side. We are still debating on names, anybody have any cute boy names that they have heard? Please let me know!

Jeff can't wait cause now he has a fishing, camping, quading, hiking, boating, buddy! We talk about our little man everyday. Jeff always comes home hugs me and says, "how's my baby (me) and my baby? (our baby) as he pats my belly. My mother-in-law Roz gave us a some adorable little newborn onesies that are SOOO TINY! Jeff came in wearing one on his shoulder last night, and patting it, yeah he can't wait.

Thanks Grammy Roz for the cute onesies and Auntie Kindy for the pacifier and socks. We can't wait to use them!

And thank you to all of you for your kindness and support. THIS Mother's Day was wonderful and next year

when our little MR. is here will be even better!

What's it gonna be?

We are having our ultrasound on Wednesday to find out what our baby is! Can't wait! I was wondering what you guys think the baby's gonna be....BOY or GIRL??????

Thanks

Just a quick post to let all of you know how much we appreciate all of your sweet and encouraging comments. Life has been busy and good. I am starting to get a belly but it is just that extra chubby stage. When I finally pop I will post some pics.

Midterms are going to be over soon and I can't wait!! I will be done with my associates in May and then will just have time to get ready for my sweet baby to come! Some day's I don't even think I am prego till Jeff comes home and starts talking to my belly, or the nausea kicks in! The time is flying by so fast and I can't wait! I haven't felt the baby move yet...still waiting...or maybe I have and just don't know it yet.

During spring break me, Kindy, Briley, and Roz all went to Texas to see Kortney. It was so much fun and Texas is beautiful. It was a girls trip with my in-law family all except for Krista who was moving. We missed ya Krista! I need to download my pics then I will post some soon.

The Journey, The Trials, The Miracle

Our journey has been long, our trials sometimes seemed to hard to bear. But after 8 years we are excited to announce that we are expecting our first child in September!

WE'RE PREGNANT!!!!

I still can't believe that this is real. Our dream if finally coming true!

The Journey:
Jeff and I have worked with doctors and infertility specialists for many, many years to get our little one here. I have gone through hormone shots, infertility meds, ultrasounds. had more lab tests and blood drawn then I care to remember, had a surgery, struggled through the sickness of new medication and the frustration of inconclusive results. The patience of working with OB after OB and having them not take us seriously. It's difficult to understand why after my explanation of how we have been trying for years and nothing is working and explaining the problems that previous doctors had found that doctors will say, "Well these things just take time, let's just give it another six months then we'll do some tests." Yeah, did you hear what I said?
Well we finally figured out that I had to get aggressive if I wanted to get results, and we became more informed about my situation but the doctors still didn't know why I couldn't get pregnant.

When I moved to the Mountain we thought adoption was the only option left. I didn't know of any fertility doctors here and traveling to Mesa 4-5 times a month to see the doctor there for fertility treatments just wasn't feasible. Then a break, we found a OB that was also a fertility specialist. I have been seeing him now for about a year. Just after Christmas I called to talk to him about invetro and found out that he didn't do that and we would have to go to Mesa if we choose that route. With all of the 'pre op' work, consults and other appointments that go into this process, I would have had to go without Jeff, and as emotional as this is for us that would be draining emotionally and financially.
SO adoption it is....so we thought.

The Trails:
Mother's Day in church was well...."black Sunday" I didn't want to go. I didn't want people to tell me to stand up and get whatever it was they were passing out with the excuse that "You'll be a mother someday." I avoided it at all costs. Whenever I would give up Jeff my wonderful husband would tell me to have faith. The Lord does hear us and He will answer our prayers. I always asked when....and Jeff would answer...in HIS time. We just have to be patient. Yeah, isn't 6, 7, 8 years patient enough? My sweet husband would console me...Just believe sweetie....just believe.
At times I didn't want to, at times I was bitter, angry. I wondered if I just wasn't good enough to be a mom.
And I cried...and cried. Jeff would hold me and just let me get out my hurt and frustration. Then he would remind me that "things are gonna be OK" Then I could get through life for awhile.
Thank you Jeff for your never ending faith, sometimes you supported us both. I love you and can't wait to make you a Daddy! You are going to be a wonderful Daddy. I love you!
Thank you to my family. You always listened, you talked with my about my doctors appointments and always stayed supportive throughout the years.

To my mom and mother-in-law. Your support, love and unyielding faith humbles me. You gave me hope and belief that someday it would be my turn. I love you both so much. To my sister-in-laws thank you for support, love and your wonderful children. I loved when you had children not only are new nieces and nephews are the most wonderful thing in the world. But you let me be so involved. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

To my friends...my sweet friends.... thank you for the talks, the support, letting me play 'mommy', letting my husband make paper airplanes for your kids in Church, laughing with me and teaching me 'tricks of the trade', you helped my fill a void in my life that almost swallowed me whole.

To everyone who prayed for us for all those years. We are so grateful. We know it is because of those prayers that we have this miracle.

The Miracle:
A baby, something we hoped for, dreamed of, prayed for, worked for and cried about. Its coming and we can't wait. I know that everyone thinks that their kid is the best thing that ever happened....but ours REALLY IS! :) I have never been so excited to be nauseous! Thanks again to all of our Family and Friends who have been there with us through this Journey. We love you and can't wait to show all of you our little miracle when it arrives in September.